My cousin wrote:
“Dad I hope wherever you are, you are reading while I am typing. Dad I was really shocked and deeply hurt when my granny told me that you passed on. I did not know what to do, I still do not know what to do. I was planning to come to you today, to talk to you and tell you how deeply sorry I am for not being the child you wanted me to be.
I remember everything that we have been through and I will never forget. I remember one day when I broke a plate and you gave me a hiding. I remember when you first washed my hair. I remember those night kisses and those morning hugs before I go to school. I remember the way you yelled at me when I forgot to unlock the car before I opened it and the alarm went on. I remember you bringing us food and buying us cold drink when we were starving. I remember seeing you every morning before I went to school and every after school. I am thinking about you and the days we used to share and it drives me crazy. It is really killing me. I will never forget how you used to fight all my battles for me, whether I did right or wrong you didn’t want to know what was happening. You always wanted the best for me. You did everything I ever wanted. The time I saw you get sick I was heartbroken but short tempered towards you, you know that’s how I am. I am disappointed in myself for not spending time with you. Why did you leave me, why couldn’t you just stay? My world is nothing without you. I cannot believe that I will never hear your voice again. I don’t know what to do with myself. I wish to feel you holding me, I wish to feel you touch me.
You’re gone and I’m lost without you, but I know I’ve got to live and make it somehow. The only thing I’m left with is a photo of you and memorise of us, the good and bad stuff. I love you dad, I love you like a father who loves their children. It’s hard to say goodbye. I can’t believe that I will never hold you near. I don’t know what to say so I won’t say anything because this is not goodbye. I believe you’re with me now and forever will be. You’re my angel. I wish God gave you a second chance just for me to talk to you once again. I can’t stop crying but because you never wanted to see me cry I’ll wipe my tears. You would rather give up your life than to see tears in my eyes. I wish you could come back to me, I hope you can hear me.
REST IN PEACE DAD
Your daughter, Tina.